Today is technically the second day we're here, we arrived yesterday but really late, we're staying in a god-forsaken town which has...nothing really lol, it feels more like a Farming sim map, which is kinda neat actually, there's an Eastern European style church nearby too, we went there and took some pictures, but we only went outside, I also know I said I'd hate it here, and honestly I do, but for slightly different reasons.
Reason 1: Stupid fucking power plugs, mines are better.
Reason 2: It's really nice here, it really is, I wish I would've been born in a place like this, everyone does seem happy, even the low wage workers like gardeners and cleaners, this place feels like one of the villages North Korea creates to make it seem that it's a paradise, and that thought makes me doubt the actual authenticity of this place, but of course, it's all real, if I would've been born here I could've lived a life like all these people, I mean, bro I could've been white, the biggest concern of the people here is of a Russian attack, and if that happens then the entire world goes out with them, so worrying about that is meaningless, but sadly I wasn't born here, I was born in a place with so many more issues with everything, and because of that I have a compromise with that country, weather I like it or not, I'm not a traitor, I'm not a coward and I'm not a selfish person.
I will never be able to experience what living in a country like this is, of course I will improve my country but it's gonna take a while before everything I do truly does an effect that makes life in my country as good as it looks in this one.
Of course, this is just another reminder from life that happiness is ultimately unreachable, I am absolutely convinced of it.
and of course, the lamp on my desk is made by ikea, because why wouldn't it be...
We didn't do much on our second day, just classes here in the god forsaken town which I will now call Stardew Valley, on the third day it snowed, it was neat, and the snow didn't melt until yesterday, I made a cluster of snow that also melted until yesterday, we went to Jonkoping for classes there, it also snowed a bit there, and then we went to a mall, I went with some girls and walked with them through all the clothing shops there were, and honestly I didn't hate looking at girls clothing as much as I hate looking at mens clothing, we also went to an ice cream place which was...interesting to say the least, you served your own ice cream, then put whatever the fuck you wanted on it, you weighed it and based on the weight you paid a certain amount per kg, of course I didn't get a kg of ice cream, I was actually the one who served themselves with the least, mine was 250g while the next smallest one was 500g, In Thursday and Friday we went to school again, nothing much to note, I went to a record store with some other guy to look for kino vynils, they didn't have any but we found some neat stuff, then we went to a place which name sounds a bit racist but in a funny way, it was called yalla yalla mat fur alla, which I assume means Yalla Yalla meat for all, it had 8 reviews on tripadvisor, 4 said it was fuckin epic, and 4 said it was much less than fuckin epic, me personally, it was meh.
Yesterday (Saturday) we went to Gothemburg, I dissobeyed direct orders and started going around alone, It was quite the city I must say, I felt in London and Mexico City at the same time, there were pro Syrian Rebel protesters, PETA protesters, a crazy guy in a chair saying that a company I had never heard about controlled the media, an Arab woman tried to mug me or at least rob me, she started talking to me saying that she needed a train ticket to Stockholm and I was like bro I have no mo-waitwait I haven't told the part that came before this yet!!!!!!
Ok so I decided to wander alone, and I found this store on google that said it sold comics and board games, so I said eh I probably won't buy anything, but would be neat to look at, and here's an exact transcript of the thoughts that went through my mind in the store
Lol, there's a Darth Vader with the gay flag as a cape, nea- *Looks left* HOLY FUCK IT'S A BOCCHI THE ROCK FIGURE, AND HOLY FUCK IT'S HATSUNE MIKU TOO, and brooo they're not too expensive, but wait I can't buy anything yet I gotta get to the board games and OMG THE BOARD GAME SECTION LOOKS SO BIGGGGGGGGG and OMG THEY HAVE THE BOLT ACTION ONEEEEEEEEE aint no way this is actually real bruh, Im gonna have to take this, but I gotta walk around the store a bit first.
I exit the board games section, and I see a staircase leading down with a movie poster next to it
Oh cool what's that? a Cinema-OMG IT'S THE MANGA SECTION THEY HAVE SO MANYYYYYYYYYY and OMG ITS BOCCHI AGAIN and NO WAYYY ITS RENT A GIRLFRIEND, bro I gotta buy this, just for the shits and giggles
I spent some more time looking through the manga section, and in the end what I got from that store was:
Rendering me essentially broke, and then the realisation kicked in, I realised that I was essentially broke, and I had no idea where I could hide the Bocchi the rock figure, the hatsune miku one is fine cause its for a gift, but idk about Bocchi, it's actually a really lmao figure, like, I have it on one of my desk shelves rn, Im gonna pack it when I get back home obviously, but it's a really neat ornament.
Either way, I honestly felt so embarrased when I came to pay, cause first the figures were behind glass so you had to ask for them, self checkout wouldve been nice lol, but also because I had rent a girlfriend, possibly the worst manga to buy from that store, in the store there was also borderline hentai, but youd only need to be embarrassed by that if you know its a famous borderline hentai, and besides that the cashier was a girl, as you probably know I'm scared of women, even more with this, if I were a girl cashier at that store and a bro came to me with all that I'd think that the game was fine, but that that bro is a pervert and will jerk off to both figures and he's a pathetic loser because he likes rent a girlfriend, if I were a boy cashier at the store i'd also think that but I'd probably just laugh at how pathetic I'd look buying all that, luckily I don't think the cashier thought that, mostly because I somehow managed to stay acting naturally and like I wanted the figures cause they would look neat on my desk, which really is what I want them for, so i exited the store, and getting back to the mall which was the meeting place for the people I was with cause I was alone and we're not really allowed to go alone anywhere, I saw a man selling paintings, and he was selling a painting of a cute kitty, and I wanted to buy it, but he took Swish which is kinda like Swedish paypal but you need to have a swedish bank card to use it, or cash, which I didn't have, so Is pent 15 minutes looking for an ATM, found one and got back to him, bought the painting and finally entered the mall, again, which is when what cut off the store happened.
Ok so, an Arab woman tried to mug me or at least rob me, she started talking to me saying that she needed a train ticket to Stockholm and I was like bro I have no cash, so she said dont worry it's fine just follow me and I'll take you to the staton to buy the tickets, but she said all that like a porn actor, I meant that she said all that sounding so fake, so I just then said no I just really don't have money, I swam all the way from Mexico to here to live a better life, and she just said ok
So then we went back to the board game store, but I went with company, and I saw the Cyberpunk edgerunners rpg board game, but because I was broke I thought about it and I didn't buy it :(
Of course I didn't do that you fucking idiot, you think I have working brain cells? I still bought it even though I was broke, although I was a bit disappointed cause it didn't have plastic figures, and because it was an rpg I had never seen what an RPG looked like, but then i saw and I knew why it looked like that, I just hadn't read what it contained carefully, still it would've been neat to ahve an actual edgerunners themed rpg with the edgerunners characters, either way, that leads me to today
Today I woke up at 8 am, 3 hours later than I usually wake up at and...bro it's only 8:32PM rn, I have time for some CSGO matches, either way, I had breakfast, did my homework, had luch, wemt for a walk alone saying that I'd go to the christmas market with the others, and when I was far enough from the town, next to the farming fields and the lake, it was beautiful, I had the most beautiful feeling, it really was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen in real life, of course a sight like the ones I see in my dreams aren't real, and they can't be real, not on this earth at least, and as I walked through the fields, I wanted to run through them, run through them over and over again, but of course when Im able to if Im ever able to my legs will be too old and tired to run, but that's just how life is, it will be filled with unacomplished dreams, but maybe when I'm dead that reality will be different.
Of course, this could be a dream, there really is no room for such beautiful places in this world, places which are beautiful are eventually destroyed, I somehow felt truly at peace in that place.
Honestly that's the reality I'm comfortable with, that this was all a dream, in a week I will wake up in my bedroom convinced of it, maybe I wrote this while half asleep and I'll never dream of these palces again.
But well, tomorrow we're going to stockholm, there's another one fo the board game stores I went to in Gothemburg so I know where Im blowing all of my (remaining) money at, for now however I'll leave this until Friday next week, I'm gonna go play csgo or read the rent a girlfriend manga.
Bye
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